Saturday, 30 December 2017


People ask me why I haven’t posted for a while.  
They assume I’m too busy.  But that’s not it.  

Too busy should never be a justification.  
Busy is a decision.  
Busy is a cop-out.  

“Too” busy just means you don’t know what you want to do.

So you (try to) do everything.  

No - I haven’t been too busy. 

Truth is, I haven’t posted in a while because I have had nothing to say.  

Nothing to say because I got hooked.
 - on junk.  

The junk that is the world we live in, and specifically - how we consume it:

  • The titles, and not the abstracts.
  • The sensational headlines, and not the boring stories.
  • The tweets, and not the articles.
  • The blogs, and not the books.
  • The notifications, and not the essays.

Repetition over education.

Where everyone speaks, but no one listens.  

All mouths.
No ears.

Where what feels good is more important than what’s true.

Junk - we find out - is a way of life.

  • It is all consuming
  • It is our new reality
  • It is stealing our time

And - if we’re not careful - it’ll steal it all.
From right under our noses, as we watch it do it.  

But there’s an antidote:


Yes - DEATH.
Or - at least the acceptance of it;
the acceptance that life is just an elaborate journey to nowhere.
And an acceptance that the only way we can live with this absurdity is because we have the ability to ask WHY. 

Why the junk?
Why time-wasting?
Why are we participating in this absurdity?

“Why” is our way out of the mess that is this world right now.

Because if we do not ask why, then what’s the point in living?

Even if our answers are unsatisfactory, it is the act of asking the question that gives us purpose.

It maybe doesn’t make sense of the absurdity that is a president Trumpty Dumpty, for example - 

but it is in asking the question that brings us closer to our own truth; 

The truth that is the constant, and unending, invention, reinvention, interpretation, and reinterpretation of ourselves throughout our lives. 

The understanding that we are always a work in progress, 
 - shaped by that which we focus on.  

Because neuroplasticity occurs whether we like it or not.
Our brain is literally changing every moment of our lives.

How we focus our attention - what we focus our attention on,
… is what our life becomes. 

“How we spend our days is how we spend our lives” - Dillard

The question is:  “how will we spend our days?”
What will we choose to do?
What will we read?
Who will we listen to?

“If I spend the remainder of my life doing this, would it be meaningful?”

In 2018, I will work through this PROCESS a little differently.

Rather than reacting to the world around me, I will engage more proactively,

  • With what I read,
  • With how I read it.
  • With how I communicate,
  • With who I communicate.

Each week, I will share my own efforts at finding my own truth:

The WHY:

The negotiation with uncertainty …

because life is complicated,
 - and complex.

And only by admitting to this - 

Nay - not the admission; but the acceptance of this;
In fact - only by embracing this uncertainty,
can we hope to find where our own truth lies.  

There are no short-cuts;
we have to play the long-game.


  1. Thank you Coach for your thinking and taking time to share! Amidst the junk of our world is really great, unmatched opportunities to collaborate and learn from each other, even at great distances. I appreciate your and the Altis’ group thinking on training and beyond. Thank you.
    D Holden

  2. Thanks for sharing. To deny truth is delusion. Not sure what you mean by "hope to find where our own truth lies." As humans we are very good at convincing ourselves of what we want to believe, but it doesn't make it true. It could lead to neuroplasticity and re-wiring of the brain that leads to delusion instead of enlightenment or truth.

    1. you're right ... I did not communicate that very well, and agree with you 100%.

      Have you read Fantasyland, by Kurt Andersen? Very timely, and revealing look into what made American the country it currently is. Also - this, from a September Atlantic article:

      “Each of us is on a spectrum somewhere between the poles of rational and irrational. We all have hunches we can’t prove and superstitions that make no sense. What’s problematic is going overboard, letting the subjective entirely override the objective, people thinking and acting as if opinions and feelings were just as true as facts. The American experiment, the original embodiment of the great Enlightenment idea of intellectual freedom, every individual free to believe anything she wishes, has metastasized out of control."